Day 258; 225.4 Pounds

I have an anger issue. All day long I scream at my dogs. It wouldn't be as bad if Zip didn't jump over the gate less than 5 seconds after I put it up (all day long), or Ranger didn't go from room to room behind my back eating everything that my son has on the tables, or IHOP didn't blatantly piss on everything in the house and look at me with a stupified look everytime I ask him to sit or laydown even though he knows perfectly well what I am asking him to do. Then they growl at me when I yell at them. The anger and drama going on in other parts of my life is making it unbearable for everyone around me. As I was screaming at the dogs tonight a thought came across my mind to just euthanize all three of them... as soon as it came it was gone and the realization that their issues are all my fault came into my head and I would just be like the "convienience euthanasia" that we all dread walking in through the exam room doors. It is all human error in some way. I don't know what is wrong with me. I love my dogs, why can't I stand them right now? I don't scream at my son even though he is in his terrible twos and today was a horrible one long temper tantrum day (except for snippets). I want to cry but I am too tired. I just don't want to live right now. I want it all to stop and change and go back to the way things were. I just want..... I don't even know.

Breakfast: 471
Lunch: 660
Dinner: 817
Snack: 200
Total: 2,148 Calories